Itch, Tickle, Pain
by Esme Boggis
’’’’ ’’’’ ’’’’ it - won’t - leave
temporal bliss of a well dug groove

’’’’’’

brushing the hairs of the arm of the arm of the leg of the arm
not tender brushing
BLOODY
SCRATCH-CH

,,,,,,mmmmmmm - you like it,,,,,,

burnished
branded with a gnat bite
a pressed crossed to relieve the
relentless
insidious
crafty icki ness
ruptured epithelium ’’’’’’

whywhywhywhywhy? why so rash? (brash?) hashed up skin (taken) ripped along
the edges
blue light keeps it circling
STUCK
resistance in the chest ’’’’’’ (trapped)

change shift wriggle away - returner
trickling under the surface
afflicted spreader ’’’’’

LIVING FOR SATISFACTION BBY - draggingsnagsacrosscreasedfreckledpink

breathing app
apply ones whole raw self
meditative chimer boiled with (honeyed) voicesssss

leave to prickle from top to toe toe to top up to left down to right
boundaries of the perfect bod

touch circles back on itself unable to reach another skin
a travelling mobile BEAST-T :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
disembodied by its own making

on the arm of the arm of the leg of the arm: tennnnnnnddddd
tooooo
theeeee
,,,uncatchable,,,more and more andmoreandmoreandmore:
STEAL REAL, STILL REAL

doubling organ doubling back,
pop lick lap:
,,,,succcccummmmmbbb,,,,

wanting (less)
more
slipper through the net
cloaked hooded disturber

AIR GRAB!
AIR GRAB!
AIR BAG!
AIR BAG!

detestable ,,,irresssissssstible,,,

ALWAYS BACK FOR MORE
BACK FOR MORE

peak n fall
like like like like like: like something
,,,filllllllllllllll-er,,,
takes you nowhere (everywhere)

only living to sooth a punctured whim



ripple it ,,,bluuue,,,
until the lips of the face turn
purpley
wilted
limp’’’’’

you’re not laughing anymore

lololololololololololol
,love u hun, loveofhuns
swarmed by the video of impersonation subjugation substitute ,body,:
LAUGH HARDER
FILTER FURTHER
POSE STRONGER’’’’’

it rests of the chest
it f-f-f-f-f-f-f-f-fizzles
from the message telling you it’s nearly OV-ER

vibrate and bring the heart back to beating:
defibrillator
pacemaker
smirkstopper
,,,COLLLLLLLLLLLLLID-ER,,,

flailing tips under pits: ‘sp sp sp pasm -- sp sp sp pasm -- sp sp sp pasm’ ---

foot tight
neck loose
fatty outskirts of ribs
grazing gooseflesh with a bittersweet tweak

what a performance!
theatrical DISASTER
aggressive impersonator --- --- under the mask they’re really them --- --- (they’re really them)

--- (they’re really them!!!)
a trout giggles ,,,somewhere,,,
hilarity soaks to the bone
badly timed joke ---
scaly squirmer
roused underbelly
slipping into a deathly trance

lie to them

crush space with a dirty feathered caress
FREE FROM THE BINDS OF COMIC STROKING -- - ---- ---
WHAT? HUH? WHO?

slap stick shun
explosive twitch
fictitious tremble
,,,innnnn-stitches,,, - - - - - -
nuzzling closer closer closer to hurt



in-escapable un-delectable un-solvable throb

painted red
sticky fuckery always
ah! aah! ,,,weeeeeeep-ping,,,

it becomes crasser and stabbier with every new new news-story appearing on the endless scroll of daily activity which isn’t even your own

,,,infiltration,,,
it’s different
it’s different now
begging to stay out for good

tears soak the QWERTY keyboard making ‘w’ ‘e’ ‘t’ STICK
over-pressed: WRETCH
can’t write wretch or write or can’t or write or can’t or wretch

swallower burns from hot vomit after seeing a two-headed lamb --- ,CRUELLLLNESS,

a shard
/
of the broken
/
glass
/
of the screen
pierces through the mottled web-bing of the fingers and the NOW
dropped on concrete a week before

bye! blood! shatter-ed-ness-enters
phone can (b)a(r)c(e)h(a)e(k) (b)a(r)c(e)h(a)e(k) (b)a(r)c(e)h(a)e(k) (b)a(r)c(e)h(a)e(k)
too

wavering line between you and it
and the thing of the thing of the thing of the thing

sad overload: waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting
1. for nothing
2. for absence
3. for attention

choose soreness
double-tap heart to make it all go away :( :( :(

a hum in the bottom of the old growler or
acid eking upwards or
puffiness turning into crusted sores/spores/pores

numbed
by white rounds popped in like sweet cream into bubbling lava
10101010101010 ,,,sweet cream/bubbling lava,,,
10101010101010 ,,,cream/lava,,,

destroy is its only answer
it’s only direct-tion is the end ---

suckling thumb
drained from the strain of repeat
taps taps taps
,crammmm-p,
innnnn --- tolerant of tolerance of torment of twisssting’’’
too-gut-pinching to ever feel again :(no hole digs deeper than you red’’’’’’’





key:
[-] - pause
[’] - breathe
[,] - change pitch
[()] - ghost note
[:] - repeat
[/] - improvise
[:(] - sad-ness/scared-ness/helpless-ness



Esme Boggis is an artist and writer based in London and graduate of the MA Writing programme at the Royal College of Art. Her interests lie in bodies, language, geographies, and objects, in states of flux, tension and mistranslation. Her writing has been published online and in print, alongside performing and exhibiting in galleries across the UK.

Instagram: @esmevboggis